After months of deserting my beloved blog due to some unexpected turbulence in personal life, I'm finally finding the courage to get back into normal life and continue this special blog on my two cuties, Smug and Lily.
Well things did not work out for me and Patrick, my boyfriend of 10 years, we were just inches away from marriage, but still fate had other ideas and unfortunately we could not reach the finishing line together like I'd always thought we would. At the beginning, I was heartbroken, I felt that my world world had come crushing down, I'd always thought we were fine, all my girlie friends envied me for having a doctor boyfriend, but reality was, we weren't the one for each other, we'd just got used to being together and couldn't be bothered to look elsewhere, but gradually we'd grown increasing irritable and frustrated with each other.
Anyway, I'm ready to move on, I mustn't keep standing still and feeling sorry for myself, besides, I have to be strong for my two angels, like kids, I'm convinced that they're able to pick up emotions and tensions of humans. These two helped me a great deal in terms of overcoming my sorrows. When I felt unable to show my true feelings in front of families and friends, it was my canine friends that I held tightly when I wanted to let it all out and have a good hysterical sob. Sometimes people go on about how their dogs understand them when they're sad and try to comfort their master by licking them or whatever. But in my case, my two dogs don't seem to understand much, as sick as a plank, they just stare at me. But that's ok, having them around is more than soothing. It was these two that motivated me to get out of bed everyday as doesn't matter how miserably I wanted to live my life, these two still had to eat, had to go for their daily walks, and it was only when I was out walking them that I felt human again, in touch with fresh air and human-beings, sometimes I even felt positive. I reckon pets are 100% good for healing breakups.
When I first started this blog, it was meant to be an intimate little diary for recording memories of me and Smug together, my first proper pet that I encountered at a bus stop 5 years ago. (See 4 years ago....) My intention was to record every memorable detail of her and every story that we create together, so when one day she leaves me behind to go to the rainbow bridge, I can still have these proofs that we were once the perfect master/petship. Something that I can just browse through and relive whenever i want to. This special mission should never have been disturbed, I know I abandoned it for a few months, but I shall never allow myself to do that again, I must keep it going no matter what.
